“When we can no longer change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” – Viktor Frankl
Good morning! Today is my only day off this entire week and I am up by 6:45am with more energy than usual. At 9:30, Ashley and I are going to Bassline for a Lean Arms/Abs class so I’m excited to get my workout in. Last night I went to an amazing power yoga class…
Gosh I love yoga. I get so caught up in work and running outside, kicking and pushing hard at Bassline and sometimes I neglect my yoga. I will go a couple days, sometimes 3 days without ANY yoga. That has got to change, because the peace I feel at the end of the day after practicing is incredible.Everything feels right when I am practicing yoga. I find my practice to get deeper every time I get on my mat. Last night the whole hour and fifteen minutes flew by with ease…I was sweating like hell, but at the same time felt no pain, no wandering of the mind. Then I leave and it’s still a beautiful day out.
So last night I slept early and relaxed; I feel like I’m turning into Carrie from Sex and the City yet I’m not talking about all the people I date on this blog…because I really don’t date. I am dating myself right now…I’ve come to that conclusion a long time ago and its true. Some days I feel great, some days I feel lonely like there is something deeply wrong with me. All around me, friends are getting engaged, married, moving in together, traveling together, having a bajillion babies together…and I am alone. I spent a vast majority of my teens and early twenties dating douchebags and players and I learned a lot from it but since then, every person I dated ended in drama, I’m scared to commit to anyone, or anything. I don’t even know how ill ever meet another male human when all I do is work and yoga and workout. I don’t even know if I want to date anyone. I’m trying extremely hard not to care about the place I am in life and the negativity that I create feeling like I will die alone.
Must push negative thoughts away.
I was always in relationships, I must embrace this…
But sometimes I just want to cry…but that’s not really like me so I throw myself into my workout routine, my self-medication.
I always return to my mat.
I must remember everything is perfect the way it is, and that we make life more complicating than it needs to be. Our twisted minds screw everything up. This is why I go to yoga everyday.
